I swear I haven't written anything in FOREVER. Anyways since my last blog post I've been given the illustrious position of 2nd Deputy Headboy (I came 3rd out of 3 candidates...) I've realised that I'm not as liked as I thought I was, I've been spending most of my time in the Drama Room, and I've been sick. Twice, and still on the second run. I've done some art.
I've been sick and I've been gaming and I've realized I'm no good at either. I'm discovering reddit and as usual NOT STUDYING, even though I've missed a few days of school and all my midterms are next week. I've been at home for an entire week and even though I'm not happy about it it isn't as bad as it usually is, and i'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing.
So OBVIOUSLY something is wrong with my life. I mean being sick was an important part of my childhood. I was ALWAYS sick, and funnily enough I had a pediatrician who didn't like giving children medicine... But yeah, every fever was 104+ and closed throat tonsillitis. Wasn't fun at all. Between infections, flus, allergies and slight lactose intolerance one could say I had a pretty sad life cut out for me BUT it all changed when i had a Tonsillectomy. Removing the tonsils basically solved almost all my immune problems and I lived a pretty healthy life since then, getting sick maybe once a year. Maybe Once A Year. For more than a decade I've been sick maybe once a year, twice on a bad year. So obviously something is wrong with my life.
I've been sick TWICE THIS MONTH.
So I'm really concerned now. What could have caused such a dip in immunity? I don't know. People are telling me I need rest, and I know I live that low sleep intensity life, but it's not new. I've been doing it for years without health problems ensuing, except probably the sleep disorder I may or may not have. So I don't think rest is the only issue here.
Part of the problem I think is school. I don't enjoy it anymore. I mean I never enjoyed schoolwork but school was always a getaway of sorts for me, with people and jokes and likkle vybe and a bit of my-style-positivity. I haven't gotten any of that since the school year started and so I guess my sleep deprivation is now allowed to cause immune collapse. School is just stress now and home is still ugh... I have no balance. The fact that I actually consider staying home as okay because I'm sick is a huge indicator of how bad things are.
The worst part of this sickness though? The random bouts of profuse sweating, as in waking-up-with-wet-sheets-and-hair sweating. (It would have been the cough but when I cough my upper abs hurt, which insinuates that I actually have upper abs, which makes me kinda happy.)
However, I'm worried how much worse this school year can get.
Very Worried.
-Me
